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Kougu did not defend himself, but simply accepted the abuse without reaction. He had become good at that over the years. Her words ran through his mind, and Kougu finally accepted the fact that this person was foe and not friend. To kill for pleasure...? There was no such thing. Whether she knew it or not, the killing would rip her soul. Humans were such strange creatures... They never knew what they wanted, they never knew what would harm them, and they could convince themselves just about anything they thought they wanted to believe... Somehow, he had become slightly different to the rest of them, yet in many ways he was much the same. As Kougu felt his legs slide out from under him, he made no move to catch himself, but simply let himself fall to the ground, already accepting the fact that he would lose consciousness. He didn't care any more... He didn't care what she was going to do. Torture him? He was used to it. Kill him? No, she would not. Try to force answers out of him? No chance. As consciousness left him, Kougu was vaguely aware of a car horn blaring nearby. So... She was going to take him away? But where...? Why...? Well, he supposed it did not matter. He had made the choice to save her life... No matter what. Now he was simply suffering the consequences. Things would eventually go back to the way they were... Until then, he would just have to hold on. Still... He had come so close to trusting her. He had almost thought he might have found a friend... She was right. He was a foolish boy... Foolish to still hold hope of such things after he had learned time and again that it was an impossibility. Betrayal was inevitable, especially for somebody like him... Though she was not betraying him. He had betrayed her. And that hurt all the more... He had never meant to do it. He had never been able to muster sincere anger, or sincere hatred... Never... Except for that one man... And for himself. That was why he had to stay alive, to make sure that man met his demise. He would be slaughtered by what he had created, and only then could Kougu guiltlessly take his own life, and release himself from the hellish world he was forced to live in.

Eva grabbed him by the ankle again. A huge smile spread across her face. She had suceeded in causing him unconsciousness. She dragged him back down the stairs and to the front door. She droped his ankled opened the door and waited for the person in the car to see her. She stepped out the door and motioned them to come closer. It was now night fall. The sky scattered with a thousand tiny white spots. Stars. The sky was clear. She stood in the light of the car. She sheilded her eyes slightly. The cars headlights doused and she headed back inside.
A guy stepped out of the vehicle and shortly followed Eva in. Eva grabbed Kougu's ankles and the guy grabbed his arms. They huirled him out of the house and into the boot if the car. They hurridlied and got into the car. "Drive!" Eva shouted nastily at the guy. She had to get out of here. That other person could be near by. They must not see her leave. If they did she would be in dire trouble. Eva kept looking at the boot, yet she could not see Kougu. Something felt wrong about what she was going to do. Something off. She felt sorry for him. he couldnt do this do him. She just couldnt. But she had promised she would and a promise is a promise. You cant go back on them. She sighed and focused up front, watching the world go by in darkness.

Kougu flopped like a limp fish as he was thrown into the boot of the car. He rolled around helplessly as the car began to move, his head lolling pointlessly from side to side. His dark hair fell over his face, whic by now had turned a grave shade of gray from starvation and exhaustion. His bones stuck out horribly, as though he was no more than a walking skeleton. His eyes were sunken into his skull from lack of sleep, with thick dark rings beneath them marking his insomnia. He looked as though he ought to be on his deathbed, yet Kougu's calculations were absolute, and he kept himself functioning properly. Of course, that was likely to change now... The stress was taking its toll on him, besides, he had no idea what Eva planned to do with him... He had only wanted to help... Why had this happened?

Eva's eyes began to droop. They had been traveling for ages. Not even a peek from Kougu. He was well and truly knocked out. Eva felt horrid for what she was doing to him. She had to help him, get him away, and herself. If not and he found out they would both end up dead. She had to think of something. "Turn into this Motel!" She said now suddenly awake. The car span and jolted as it did a sudden turn. Now in the parking lot of a small road side motel. She had an idea. It was dark outside so nobody would see her carriying the body of Kougu. The driver got out and headed into the office. She had made sure they had seprate rooms, she would be sharing with Kougu. Well keeping an eye on him. When the guy came back he ahnded her the keys to her room and disapeared to his.
Eva grabbed up Kougu in her grips, looked around her and headed to her room. She dumped him on the first bed, headed back down and locked up the car. She ran up the flight of stairs and into the room. He was still in the same place, he was still unmoving. Tears began to fall down her cheecks. What had she done? He had trusted her to some extent and she was just backstabbing him. He was the first and last person that had actually not found her scarey and wierd. The first to actually like her and save her life. Now she was just trowing that all away and going to cause him much more pain. She couldnt do that. She had an idea what they could do, but would he trust her now?...
Eva sat on the other bed staring at his unmoving body. She had to wake him up before first light. They would have to be gone before then, if they wanted to get away unseen. Thats if he wanted to run with her. Then she suddenly got an idea. The one way to wake someone unconscious would be to throw or put something cold on them. She went into the bathroom, grabbed the cup for the toothbrushes and filled it with freezing cold water frm the tap. She headed over to Kougu and threw it into his face, she hoped her would awaken, if not she didnt have a clue how to waken him up.

Kougu came around with a jerk as the cold water hit his face like a blow from a sledgehammer. He gasped and spluttered, swiping the water away from his face and shaking his head as he threw himself into a sitting position. He instantly scooted away from Eva, an only when he was at his comfort distance did he truly notice her presence. Once he became properly aware of his surroundings, he ceased his head-shaking and simply stared at her, his hair looking like spilled oil as the jet-black strands gleamed with the moisture and clung to his pale face. Water slowly trickled down his face, dripping from his nose and chin as he continued to sit motionlessly, staring unblinkingly and expressionlessly at Eva. He wasn't sure why she had brought him here, but he did know that it had not been her best idea... If only he could explain to her... Make her understand just how dangerous he could be... All the more so, since it was completely unintentional. Still, she was well capable of defending herself, so as long as he was able to get control swiftly, or warn her first... One thing was for sure, he could not tell her the truth. Still, that might not matter in a few minutes, since there was a strong chance that she was planning on having him killed or tortured. This thought did not seem to bother him in the slightest. Still, no words seemed to be coming to his mind, and he was beginning to feel awkward, simply sitting, dripping, and staring in the silence. His face slipped into a frown of concentration, his gaze darting away as he thought long and hard about what was the most important thing he ought to say. Finally, he found his words and glanced up at her again, his eyes seeming almost as though they were beneath an invisible mask, for they showed nothing beyond their dark blue depths. No thoughts, no emotions... It was almost as though he had none. "Thank you for removing me from that room." Kougu managed finally, his tone echoing the complete sincerity that his expression showed. Clearly, making his gratitude known had leaped out at him as the most important thing at that moment, despite the many questions he could have asked about her intentions and his whereabouts. In some strange way, though, he did not even care. He deserved whatever punishment she had come up with for him.

Eva watched him with sorrow filled eyes. He was being his usual self, that was a good sign. He also looked slightly confused. Well it was no miracle he had been kinda kidnapped. He suddenly spoke dragging her out of her constant mind blabble. He watched him with curious eyes. He was saying thank you!? this confused her a little. "You saying thank you, to me? for taking you from that room and kidnapping you?" She looked away from him "You and me must run, We must get out of here before first light. If we dont you could be in crave danger, i cannot tell you anymore sorry. And if you just flee i will end up dead. We must both go then we will both have a better chance at surviving." She sighed and looked at him. "You may be thinking, why am i doing this now? because i thought long and hard on the journey here and it is the right thing to do. And i just cant let anything happen to you, it would just eat me up inside. We must run and hide. He will hunt us down and wont stop untill he finds us both. If we leave now we will have a better chance at getting further away from here." She loked at him long and hard and then stared at the floor. She didnt know what else to do, she had to run, he had to run, and they would be better of together than apart. He must believe her, he had too. "I am sorry for how i have treated you, i am a bad person" she spoke softly and into the floor, but was aimed at Kougu.

"Of course." Kougu replied in a surprised tone, "There isn't anybody else here that I might be speaking to, after all..." He concluded, shrugging slightly. He had thought he had made himself clear... The fact that she even had to ask that question confused him greatly. Then again, most things confused him greatly when he made his few and far between futile attempts at socialising. His confused frown switched to one of concentration as she began to speak again, and it was clear that he was thinking long and hard, weighing the pros and cons of every situation and piecing together what he knew. "I understand your logic..." Kougu replied slowly, choosing his words with caution, "However, there are a few small problems. Firstly, I am reluctant to leave my home, as my family are there." His emotionless face twitched slightly at these words, but he pushed away the haunting memories and continued in the same tone, "Secondly... I worry for your safety while in my presence. You should be able to empathise with me when I tell you that I cannot explain the situation to you, for it seems you are in a similar predicament in that case... But the fact remains that I cannot be trusted, and chances are that fleeing with you might put you in even greater jeopardy than before. As for myself..." He broke off with a bitter chuckle, then finished in a cold tone that did not quite seem to be directed at Eva, "I will be fine. I am always fine..." He trailed off, clenching his jaw to dispel the rare surge of anger that coursed through him at those final words. Finally, he pushed himself up and began pacing back and forth, thinking carefully over the situation. If his leaving would indeed put Eva in more danger, then obviously he would stay... Flee with her... But what if he himself would prove more of a danger than what was on the outside? It had happened before... If only he could let her understand... But he simply couldn't. Suddenly, Kougu became aware of the fact that Eva was speaking again. He halted his pacing and glanced over at her, his face creasing into a concerned frown at her words. He glanced down at the floor for a moment, then sat on the bed beside her, though still a fair distance away. "Hey, don't worry." He consoled her in a gentle tone, a strange warmth in his voice that showed a little of the true personality he had trained so hard to hide, "You need never apologise to me. I deserve any punishment inflicted on me. Besides, you did the right thing. I do not think, no, I know that you are not a bad person." He concluded, his tone becoming firmer, yet the gentle, comforting warmth still remaining there. He didn't want her to feel guilty because of him... Not ever. The pain of guilt... He didn't ever want to see another soul go through that.

Eva sat on the bed and watched him closely as he spoke. She didn't know what to do. She was canfused and nervous, you could tell from her non-sense babble of speech. She was really stumped this time.
Eva was half paining attention to Kougu's words and half in her own little world, of worry. If they didnt run, then he would be dead or tortured to death. If they both ran and didnt do it soon, it was a more likely chance both would be killed. If she tok Kougu to him only one life would be speared. If they both ran soon, potentialy both lives could be saved. They didnt reallt have to stick together all the way. But it would be better if they did through some of it.
From there conversation, she had only picked up on a few words of Kougu's. He wouldnt leave his family, he was concerned about her. He believed he was fine. She didnt notice him move closer to her untill he had spoken. He was too close. Eva suddenly recoiled from him. She sprang from the bed and her arms raised submissivly. Eva eyes where huge and bulging. She didnt know what was going through her head, but just a wierd instinct to get away from him. She was backing up, arms still raised. "Get away from me!" Eva shouted, her voice bitter. She soon found herself with her back pressed against a hard, cold wall. She rapped her arms around her face -hiding it from him- and slowly crouched down to the floor. Almost curled up in the corner.

Kougu jerked his head up in alarm when she retreated, his heartbeat quickening suddenly as shock, and perhaps a hint of fear, coursed through his veins. He watched her with wide, alarmed eyes as she backed away and shielded herself from him, but at her words he found his nerves suddenly begin to calm. The one time... The one time he had made any sort of effort to comfort somebody, and this was how she reacted? Clearly he had misunderstood... Done something wrong... Now he had sacrificed his own comfort, only to have her instantly flee from him, so clearly he had made the matter worse. Well that proved it... He simply didn't belong around people. A bitter smile curved Kougu's lips and he slowly pushed himself up from the bed. "You're right." He murmured softly, watching her from a safe distance. "I ought to have got out of here long ago, else my presence might endanger your life." He stated bluntly, turning and walking toward the door. He paused when he reached it, resting one hand on the handle and thinking for a moment. Finally, he turned his head back to speak to Eva one last time. "I am glad that you are seeing sense... That you are coming around to my way of thinking. I bid you farewell now, and I only hope that no ill fortune might befall you." He offered a stiff, emotionless smile, then pushed the door open and stepped out into the hallway. Though he did not turn around, a soft whisper slipped from his lips, so quiet it may not have been coherent at all, "Know only that I shall never forsake you. I would gladly give my life to save you, if only to have done one thing to benefit this earth before I am gone. Humanity needs people like you, Eva... Perhaps some part of me knew that all along." Kougu's feet began moving before he had even finished speaking, though it didn't matter... He had not been speaking to her anyway, not really... His thoughts had simply slipped out aloud. It was a cruel parting, having to lose the one person who, for at least some space of time, had seemed to accept him. Yet the joy at leaving her alive was far greater than the sorrow of losing her company.

Eva sat still for a while, before she realized what he was doing. She suddenly sprang to her feet so fast it send a wave of dizziness over her. She pushed the door open and ran to catch up with Kougu. "Kougu Stop please!" eve cried out in pain, hoping he would stop. She stumbled as she ran. Tiredness and exhaustion taking over her energy. She ran and stumbled to try and catch up with him. He was obviously ignoring her as he didn't even stop when she called to him.
She was getting out of breath when she caught up to him. She half collapsed on the floor. Before she could fall to the ground she grabbed the wall to support her. Thats when she noticed the guy. She had looked up, out into the car park, and there standing with a gun in his hands was the guy from the beach. His face lit up when he saw her, the gun was pointed right at her. The guys glare went from her towards Kougu, then the barrel of the gun soon followed his gaze. At that exact moment she new what he was going to do. Energy suddenly shot through her. The guys finger was now on the trigger, the gun up to his eye so he got perfect shot. Eva ran at Kougu and jumped onto Kougu tackling him to the ground. The gin shot went not long after they hit the floor. was it too late? had it hit him?? or was it a near miss? Maybe she had been hit? Who knew, it had happened all too fast.

Kougu came to a standstill, and slowly turned his head as he heard her voice, his expression giving nothing away as he stared unseeingly at her. He frowned slightly as he noticed the sudden horror in her expression. He began to turn his head to see what had alarmed her so, but before he could, she had tackled him to the ground. At first blinding shock rendered Kougu incapable of thought or action, then his mind slowly clicked into place. He... Had almost got shot? How had he not noticed the man approaching...? Had he been that absorbed in his thoughts? Perhaps... Or perhaps the truth was that, deep down, he didn't much care. He never really had... All the same, to have such a lapse of concentration that he had missed such an obvious attack... His thoughts clicked onto a different track then: Eva! She had been trying to protect him, the fool! Hadn't he already told her that he didn't want her to suffer for him... What if she had taken the bullet? If she was injured because of him... Icy fear lashed through Kougu's veins, poisoning his blood, and once again he changed the track of his thoughts. That man with the gun... He had fired that bullet. He could have hurt Eva. This thought caused a strange sensation to run through Kougu's mind, and it took quite some time for him to recognise it as anger. That realisation made him panic, and he cast around desperately for some distraction. That was when he realised it... She was way too close. Kougu's breath caught in his throat, and the wave of panic that swept over him was so intense that it knocked hi out instantly, causing his frail body to flop limply against the wall. He lay thus for a moment, then his shoulders began shaking as an impish chuckle escaped his lips. He slowly raised his head, a grin splitting his face as he stared up at his attacker with a devious, menacing expression. Sparing not a thought for Eva, he shoved her away from him and climbed to his feet, walking fearlessly toward the man with the gun. Blood... He didn't care who... Somebody owed him blood, and he would be sure to take it. A demented cackle burst from his lips at the thought, his eyes flashing with eager anticipation for the violence and blood-spill that lay ahead.

Eva rolled over onto her back. Kougu had pushed her away. She didn't blame him though, she was a little too close to him. Kougu then suddenly jumped to his feet and strode of, looking rather angry yet pleased with his thoughts. Something big was about to happen. Eva could feel it. She gently pushed herself into a sitting position, a wave of dizziness caught over her. She completely ignored it and it soon vanished. She turned her head to look at what Kougu and is crazy mind were doing, when she noticed blood on the floor. One of them was hurt, and by the looks of it, quite badly too. There was a largish puddle of blood where she had just tackled Kougu to the floor. She then noticed a trail of blood. She followed the small splotches of it. It trailed right at her. She slapped herself in the head. She was an idiot she had gotten herself hurt for Kougu, now he really was going to get annoyed. He had told her time and time again that she was not to worry for him. She couldn't control herself and always found herself trying to save him. Why though? She had no idea. Fate had brought them together. One of them needed the other. For what she had not found out. Something to do with their pasts, maybe, or something bigger to come in the future. But right now it was the present and she wasn't living in it. Eva shook her head and came back to the Motel and the latest incident. She suddenly felt a large wave of jaw clenching pain rip through her body. She searched for the source of it mentally and found it was in her right arm. She looked down and winced away from the sight. Her arm was stained a deep crimson, some dry but mostly fresh and still pumping out. The bullet had pocketed itself into layers of her skin. It had missed her enough that it hadn't gone right through her arm, but embedded itself into her. She gritted her teeth. Her next action was going to cause her a hell of a lot of pain. She lifted her left arm, reached over to the opening of the wound, Stuck her fingers in and wrenched out the bullet. Tears gushed from her eyes as she forced herself not to scream. Just a whimper escaped her lips. She did not want to distract Kougu or get his attention that she was hurt. She did not like being looked after, or others to worry about her problems. She liked to suffer in silence. Eva pulled her leg up to her chest and pulled out a lace from her converse. Eva wrapped it around her arm above her wound, that was still bleeding heavily. She grabbed one side of the lace with her mouth and gripped the other in her free hand. She tied it in a tight knot so that the blood flow was cut of from her arm, maybe some would still get through but less would be lost now. Though she had already lost enough that she almost collapsed with tiredness and from the loss of blood. She forced her eyes to stay open. Her back pressed against the wall and her breath coming in short and sharp.

Kougu continued to advance toward the shooter, a malicious grin splitting his face. The man began to seem nervous as Kougu got closer, his expression unchanging, except for perhaps a gradual increase in his desperation to bring blood, pain, violence and finally: death. The man fired another bullet, and Kougu dodged it easily simply by tilting his head to one side, the bullet skimming so close by him that he could feel the wind of its passing. "Stay back!" The man warned, his words coming out in a low growl as he clenched his gun tighter, aiming it at the approaching menace. Kougu came to a standstill and stared at the man for a moment, then he threw his head back and laughed. The high-pitched, hysterical laughter escalated to the very pinnacle of insanity, then slowly subsided into a devious cackle before melting away into nothingness. A wide grin was still plastered on his face, abusing the stiff muscles in his pale cheeks. Kougu progressed forward again, dodging each bullet the man fired with no more than a single step. "You keep away from me!" The man yelled, starting to back away, his gun still pointed at this bothersome fool he simply could not seem to hit. "You'll get killed if you try anything funny!" The man assured him, squaring his shoulders and holding his ground with a new determination. "Just you try..." Kougu murmured in response, "Just you try and lay a finger on me!" He dared, his voice rising into a delighted jeer. He stared the man in the eye for a moment, then a maddened grin splashed over his face, and he whirled around in a series of complex battle-movements to grab the gun from the man's hand. When Kougu came to a standstill once more, he had the man twisted into a headlock, and the gun was pointed at his right temple. It had all happened so quickly, that it seemed literally in the blink of an eye, Kougu had gone from being a potential victim, to a potential killer. He stood thus for a moment, enjoying the feeling of the man's pulse gradually becoming stronger and more rapid as his heart pumped violently, determined to preserve his life despite the impending doom. Kougu had always loved the feeling of the pulse heightening before the end put it to a cold halt... More than that, he loved feeling it gradually melt away, until there was no life left. His grin widened at that thought, and Kougu closed his fingers on the trigger. His long, pale forefinger gradually bent, and the trigger was pressed in, instantly releasing a bullet, followed by the crash of gunfire as the shiny metal bullet sank itself into the man's brain, embedded there for all eternity. The man began to twitch and gasp, and Kougu held him tight, his fingers making the pink skin on his neck turn white beneath the pressure. Gradually, his twitching subsided, and Kougu felt his final heartbeat flutter and die. He released the corpse, letting it to crumple to the ground in a lifeless heap. A neat, round hole could be seen through the blood-matted locks of hair beside the man's right temple, blood gushing from the wound to cover his face in a sticky crimson mask. It trickled like ink over his clothes, creating a form of demonic tie dye on the material. Blood rapidly began pooling up around him, the thick, gluttonous liquid forming a gory pool on the shiny tiled floor.

Suddenly, Kougu felt his own heartbeat as it sounded in time with a mechanical clicking in his head. Horror struck a pang into his heart in the very instant he slid out of his trance, yet it took a while for him to understand why. He stared blankly down at the dead man for at least 2 minutes before he finally began to see him. Kougu began trembling instantly, his limbs shaking like leaves in a breeze as he saw what he had done. Not again... Not again! He soon began to hyperventilate slightly, his heart pummelling his ribcage in desperation for escape as white-hot guilt flooded his veins, burning up his soul from within. Suddenly, another horrifying thought struck him, and he whirled around. It was as he feared... There sat Eva, surrounded by a pool of her own blood, clutching a newly bandaged wound. All of this... All of this was his fault! Once again, he had left death and destruction in his wake. It couldn't be happening... It just couldn't... He couldn't take it any more. "Not again... Not again... What have I done?" Kougu muttered, his words leaving his lips in a random jumble, his whispered mutterings almost completely incoherent in the deathly silence. "Not again... Not again..." He clutched his head and stumbled backwards, his fingers digging so hard into his flesh that white circles began spreading out from the tips, barely visible as his skin was already so pale. He staggered backwards, clutching hi head so hard it seemed he was determined to rip it off. Suddenly, his back collided with the wall, and his legs buckled instantly, forcing him to allow himself to slide down it. He drew his knees up to his chest as he hit the ground, staring unseeingly in front of him, his eyes wide with shock and approaching trauma. He would have been panicking already, had the pain of the guilt not been so much that he had no idea what to do with it, or how to react...

Eva heard a load of comotion going on. She didnt care as long as Kougu was fine. She was doing it again, Thinking about Kougu's safty. why was she doing it. She slaped herself again. She was so stupid. This wasnt her, she didnt Ever care for someones safty. She never used to even think about safty, untill she met Kougu.
Eva could here Kougu talking to that guy, and then came the bullet shot. Her heart was attempting to escape. She didnt want to look. If it was Kougu who had been shot, she would go into a craze. If it wasnt she would be over the moon. You see that guy had been chasing her since she had escaped from the underground. He had been sent to kill her. Eva has been running for years, Never had the time to have a real life. She wished with all her heart that it was the guy, and not Kougu.
Eva did what she was framing heself from doing. She turned her head to the scene that had just gone on in front of her. Kougu was acting wierd. Kougu!! she mentaly shouted, he was alive. Her heart began beating faster. what was wrong with her? Yeah she was happy that he was alive, But she wasnt that happy, to make her heart race. Kougu was a bad influence on her, causing her to feel all the emotions she had boxed away to a tiny far awya place in her mind.
Eva suddenly snapped out of her forever mental argument. She was a sucker for them. They had to run now. It was still dark and they had a chance to get away. Forgetting all about her injury. Eva jumped to her feet and strode over to Kougu. She grabbed his arm and yanked at him. "Move now! we must leave here, get up, Now!" She said in a low but strong voice, very demanding. Her head get darting around the place, looking for any kind of movment. She couldnt stand still and was forever fidgeting.

Kougu continued to stare blindly ahead, his heart beating somewhere in his throat and his mind refusin to function. One single thought was repeated in his brain again and again, echoing into every corner until he had no hope of escaping it. He had killed that man. He had ended another life. It was all his fault... It had happened again. Again. Kougu wasin such a trance of shock and despair that he did not even notice her grip on his arm, where normally he would have freaked at the unexpected contact. He was not going to move. He was not even sure he could move... He heard Eva's voice as though from a distance, but he was still barely aware of her presence. He turned his head and stared unseeingly at her for a moment, then looked away again, still locked so deep in his remorse and despair that reality had faded away altogether. He raised the gun in his hand and stared at it, his dark eyes reflecting the cold metal as he considered what he had vowed to himself he would never do, as it would mean failure... Pointless failure, and idiocy beyond measure. Yet here he was, the gun clutched in his hand, and a strong desire to pull the trigger in his heart. Yet he made no move to shoot, nor did he seem to intend to lower the gun. He simply stared at it. Staring, and staring, but never seeing... Muttering endlessly, but never speaking. It was as though he was some sort of psyche ward escapee, for he was acting strange than ever before. The soul crushing horror... The guilt of having killed yet again... It was too much for his soft heart to bear.

Eva waited for him to move, but nothing happened. She looked down at him. He still had the gun in his hands and he was straing at it! Fool, what was he doing! She sighed and crouched down to his level. She put a hand under his chin and forced him to look at her, wether his eyes were galzed over or not. "Hey, stop torturing yourself over this. it is self defence. Look" she pointed to her wound. "He shot me so you protected me by killing him. Trust me, i have worked with the police force, they wont be bother by this. Hes on the wanted list anyways, they will see it as a favour, so they dont have to move their butts and kill him themselves" She laughed slightly. She knocked the gun out of his hands and sent it spining across the floor. She grabbed Kougus hand and pulled him up with her. "Come on we need to get out of here!" she said in a desperate plea this time. Eva gently tugged on him to get him moving. He was still in a slight trance and maybe getting him to move would be better for him. "You cant tell me you've never killed before" eva said not really a question just trying to wonder why he was so tranced and effected by this. "Please just move your butt man, we Need to go!" this time eva sound more desperate to leave than ever before.

Kougu allowed himself to be pulled to his feet, completely unable to resist in his trans-like state. The wayhe was acting, he might have been completely brain-dead. A vegetable, through and through. Yet as he took a stumbling step after Eva, her words gradually began to reach his deafened ears. He raised his eys and stared at her, his face completely expressionless. He hadn't the willpower to resist, yet he could not bear the thought of going with her... Not after what he had done. He was impure and unworthy... All he wanted to do was escape. Escape, and fling himself back into full fledged solitude, where he could not be a danger to anybody. A slight frown creased Kougu's expressionless face, the first sign that he did still have something actually happening in his mind. A few blinks later, the focus gradually began to return to his eyes, yet the closer he got to reality, the more real the pain of guilt and remorse became. For a moment he thought about attempting to speak, bu he could find no words... Not even one. So he simply shook his head and pulled his arm away from her, then began walking hopelessly in the direction she had indicated. What else could he do...? An extreme level of depression was paralysing his mind and body, and decision making was simply impossible.

Eva shook her head and drew it back slightly when he stared at her. WHAT!! she mentally shouted at him. He was so annoying at times it really irratated Eva. He was so involved with himself. She rolled her eyes at him and turned away from his anoying staring gaze. She kept hold of his hand and gently tugged him in the right direction. He was rather pathetic, if he was going to act like this after killing someone then he desvered a wake up slap round the face. Eva couldnt believe the way he was reacting, not after she had seen some of a different side of him. Who almost killed her. A slight laugh escaped her lips at the memory. They had both acted rather strange. And now because of it look what had happened. Kougu had killed someone, Someone she was rather pleased about him kiling. It took a huge weight of her shoulders. It actually cause her to relax a little. Maybe she could have a normall life after this. She quickly shook her head at that, what was she thinking? SHe was such an idiot, Again. She then felt him draw back and pull his hand away. She instanly dropped his hand, in a way that made it look like she had grabbed hers back. She stuffed her hands in her pockets and began walking faster. If he didnt want to go then he could go stuff himself. She didnt have time with moaping guys. If anything she normally avoided them. she would find her own way. She dint need him. She had only just met him and she was still alive. So screw him. She thought. She quickly took that thought back. No, she needed him alright. Kougu, had saved herl life on the beach, and here they both are now, annoying the hell out of each other.

"Eva, wait..." Kougu murmured, his voice hushed and almost toneless. Hiding the pain from his voice was such a massive effort, it all but exhausted him. He gritted his teeth, and forced himself to jog forward a couple of steps to catch up with her. "I'm sorry..." He continued, his voice low and subdued, dulled by suppressed emotion. "I- This is... A weak moment for me. I'm truly sorry you've had to endure it..." He mumbled, dropping his gaze. He was trying to get a grip now... Really trying... But the memories just kept flooding back, reminding him again and again of what he had done... But what was he doing now? This wasn't him... This wasn't the way he was supposed to be... "Please... Just give me a little time... And I'll explain everything." Kougu stated in a dull, resigned tone. He had just made a decision he had been battling with for a long time. Eva deserved to know. It was pure selfishness keeping him from telling her... And selfishness was not a part of who he was, and he was determined never to let it rule his actions. He had lost all respect for himself a long time ago... Therefore his comfort and happiness were of minimal importance, if any at all... It was time he refocused, and stopped wallowing in self pity. If he explained to her, she could understand. If she understood, perhaps she could accept...

Eva automatically slowed down to his voice. She didnt look at him as he spoke. But whne he said the words. I'm sorry, it made her stop and turn to look at him. She did so, slowly. Not really sure what she was going to expect or overcome. She made heself look into his eyes, only to find a slight emotion of sadness. her shoudlers slumped and she listend to what he was saying. "Its okay, really. I guess i have just ... seen to much of it in my life that im kinda immune to seeing the dead" She shruged her comment of. Eva took a step closer to him as he dropped his gaze. She had the urge to comfort him. He really was going threw a hard time, and all beacuse of her. "You can have all the time you want" Eva murmered softly to him.
Whay was she doing this do him! one mitute she was angry at him then she just wanted to comfort him. What was wrong with her! She was the reason why he was in pain now. If he hadnt saved her on the beach then he would never have even been in this mess. He wouldnt have had to endure all this pain, that killing someone was putting him through, She was putting him through. She was always the corse of others pain. She was even the reason her Dad had died, and her Mum to change her name and run away from Her. Eva's face was sudenly washed with utter horror and pain. She stepped back from him. She couldnt even look at him. "You dont need to explain yourself, for i am the reason for all this pain you have just gone through. And dont try and tell me im not. I have caused pain to anyone close to me. I even caused my fathers death. You cant tell me otherwise. You should just leave me here and let me suffer. Its what i deserve!" Eva sounded so dissapointed in herself. She always did this to her, put her self down. But she was right. Her Dad Died. Because of her. She plunked herself on the floor and rested her head in her hands.

Kougu took a deep breath, steeling himself, then sat down beside her, yet still keeping his usual abnormally large distance between. Still, it was a large gesture for him... "Eva... I'm sorry." Kougu murmured, though the tone of his voice was niether pity nor sympathy, but a fierce, burning empathy. "I... Think I understand, just this once. The pain of knowing your mistakes have hurt the people you love..." Kougu's voice shook slightly with suppressed emotion as he spoke, yet he forced himself on, desperate to provide some form of comfort for Eva, yet painfully aware that he was utterly useless in the situation. "There's nothing I or anbody else can do to lessen that pain, much as I wish I could..." Kougu murmured softly, "But I can tell you this: I have brought all this upon myself. It has nothing to do with you, honestly... I- I can't explain it, but... Let's just say I've done some things I regret, and I never quite got over it... I doubt I ever will. It isn't anything you've done, I can promise you that. I brought all this upon myself. So please, for the last time, do not worry about me." Kougu insisted, managing a slight smile as he finished, a vague hint of increduality creeping into his tone as he made a fruitless attempt to lighten the mood slightly.

Eva slamed her hands down in the mud. She turned and stred at Kougu. "Will you just quit it with, 'Stop worring about me'! Already!" She tryed to mimic him, but failed, misrably. "If it has nothing to do with me then why am i here! why did all this happen under the presence of me? Why? can you tell me that? Its not just your fault this happened. If i never escaped from them undergrounds then that guy you just killed would never be after me and you wouldnt have had to save me on the beach. And then i wouldnt have had to save you from him, because you saved me, beacuse i escaped. You see it is my fault, the arrow is always pointing back to me. Me! Not you! You dont get it do you! I Killed my own father in flesh and blood. My mother couldn't bare to look at me, cause of it she has removed all presence of herself from me. All apart from the memories of utter horror that i carry around everyday with me. I am always running never walking." she turned her head way from him. "I am the course of all this and you cant change what i think, No. What i know. Casue no matter what you say. I.Am.The.Course.Of.Your.Pain." She sat in quite for a moment. She slowly turned her gaze towards Kougu and looked him in the eye. "I am sorry for what happened back there, But i am really glad you killed him. He has been botherig me for some years know, and i feel relived of a wieght that ive been carrying around with me, now hes dead. Thank you" Eva murmered the last bit, as tears began to flow down her face. She tried to hide it from Kougu, but it was too late. They had escaped before she could even remove her gaze from him. She gently tugged on the shoe lace on her arm, and removed it. The wound reopening and fresh blood began seeping out. She deserved to be in pain. She sucked in her breath as a new wave of pain passed over her.

"Eva-" Kougu broke off, panic cracking his tone as he saw the tears running down her face. He could not bear to see her so distraught, it tugged at his heart and the sympathy welling up within him almost overwhelmed him. On a rare impule, Kougu shifted slightly toward her and patted her shoulder clumsily, attempting what the few basic instincts he had told him was right to comfort her. He sat as close to her as he dared, yet he still had to stretch his arm to its full extent to reach her shoulder nearest him. He had never made such an effort before, yet the sight of her tears was just too much for him, and he felt he had to do something... Only he felt so helpless, because he knew that nothing he could say or do would ever take the pain away... He knew only too well. "Eva... I'm sorry, really and truly sorry for what has happened to you. It must have been harder than I can even imagine, and I don't know how you have clung to that pain this long... I wish there was something I could do..." Kougu broke off for a moment, frustrated by his own uselessness, then spoke again in a slightly firmer tone. "You can play the blame game as much as you like, but please believe me when I say that I have brought this completely upon myself. I do not regret that that man is dead, nor do I regret killing him... It's just- It is too complex for me to explain, but you must understand that it was not your doing... Please, take my word for it." Kougu pleaded, his tone holding a faint note of desperation as he finished. "You have... Helped me far more than you think." Kougu mumbled softly, staring at his feet awkwardly. "So please... If you can... Don't blame yourself. At least, not for this. If I hadn't chosen to deflect that bullet that day, I don't think I'd ever have got my life together again... Don't you see? It was you who saved me... From a fate far worse than death." Kougu concluded, his speech gradually becoming less direct as he made the gradual transition from speaking directly to Eva, to simply speaking his thoughts out loud. Her sorrow tugged at his heart, still now, and he sent out a silent prayer that, somewhere, somehow, her burden might be shared, and her pain eased... She didn't deserve this suffering...

One side of Eva'smouth began to rise in a smile. He was right. She shoudlt be blaming herself for everything that had happened. And he was glad he had saved her life. That sent a trill a joy through her body. Nobody had cared for her like that before. yeah some had saved her, but never even jumped infront of a bullet for her. She wasnt used to this, it was messing with her head. "Oh Kougu! Im sorry, im just not used to this. I have never met someone before that understands who i really am. Its new to me. I am sorry for the way im acting, Its even wierd for me" She laughed gently through the tears. "We have got to stop doing this, blaming ourselfs for what has happened. We end up arguing or worse, trying to kill each other. But then end up saving each others lifes. Why are we here? Why did we meet that day on the beach? what is bringinning us together? This is all just a little weird if you ask me." She looked away from him for a few seconds, then ack again and carried on talking "Thank you for everything you have done for me, that means alot coming from me. Normally i dont like people whatching over me, actually i dispise it, but i am glad you have." She gave him a smile her tears had now dried on her face. She felt relived of another huge load she had been carring on her shoulders. She was beginning to become happy for once in her short life.

Kougu felt his stiff cheeks slide into a painful smile at her words, relief coursing through him at the sound of her laugh. He could barely believe how glad he was that she she seemed marginally more cheerful... More than that, he was so utterly surprised by the fact that what he had said seemed to have worked... That had never happened to him before. Usually he only succeeded in throwing gas on the fire and making everything worse... "A little weird." Kougu agreed with a faint chuckle. "And I am glad that you accept what I've done... I find that I am incurably selfish when it comes to protecting my... Friends." Kougu admitted hesitantly, "I cannot stand to see them suffering, or at risk, so I automatically decide to assist them without sparing a thought for their own feelings..." Kougu trailed off, offering a sheepish shrug. "I'm sorry that I'm so... Messed up." He added quietly, "Honestly, I don't know how you find the patience to tolerate it... But I thank you." Kougu muttered tentatively, letting his mile still linger on his lips. The deeper level of speaking made him extremely nervous, yet somehow it was almost a good feeling... To speak on a more personal level... He had never expected that it would feel like this. To be so vulnerable, yet forced to trust her... A smile of true happiness stretched across Kougu's face as an important realisation struck him. Unless he was much mistaken... He had just made a friend. Only once before had he had a true friend... Now it had happened again. Though he knew he did not deserve a second chance, Kougu could not help but be thakful that, just maybe, there was some hope left for his pointless life after all.